Why must I always be scared of possibility?
Why must I crave for something I'll no doubt reject when offered?

Why must I regret everything only to wish I didn't.

Why must I insist I'm happy and fine with everything when I so far from it.

Why must I dream of the perfect guy only to be disappointed again and again?

Why for the love of God must I constantly kid myself about my feelings and hide them from those I love?

Why is it that only the conversations in my head work out happily ever after?

And why, why does nobody see that I'm dying inside.

I need to make a change.

I stared because their faces, so different, so similar, were all devastatingly, inhumanly beautiful. - Bella Swan

Short Stack.

It was a fairly good December 18th if I say so myself.

Woke up 8:30am

Go to Dads, wish him a happy birthday

Leave Dad's 12:00pm drive to Melbourne

Arrive, get all prettied up, do Siobhans make-up

Walk to train-station, get on train - off train at Southern Cross.

Get chips, watch countless (well 10) Short Stack fans walk by.

Arrive at Festival Hall at 5:15, HUGE LINES, some fans had been there since 10am!

Line up, leave line, line up in correct line.

Meet up with Georgia & her friend, dis Stack Fans, realise we are Stack fans, love Stack fans that are us, just not everyone else :P

Are finally let in at 6:30pm, line up to buy merch.

See that JIMMY MACHAN, SHAUNJUMPNOW, and SONNY ARE WORKING IN THE MERCH STAND!!!!! Arhhhhhhhhhhhh! SO FREAKING EPIC! (FYI they are really good friends of Short Stack! So that was rather awesome :) )

Realise they are much shorter than I thought they would be :p

Buy 3 shirts, and a Stack Pack which includes a massive poster and Sweet December single from Jump-now :D

Join hoards of people in mosh pit/standing area. Wearing my new I heart ANDY shirt(its like the I heart NY shirts but with A and D added in :D)

Supporting acts DIE FOR YOU and SUNDANCE KIDS, both of which where amazing and put on a great show.

Finally at like 10 Short Stack hit the stage to hundreds of screaming teenaged girls, myself included.

They put on a great show, heaps of screams, swaying of arms, hearting the stage (with your hands, you make a heart :) ) lots of jumping and burning the mother f*cking place down as told to do so by Shaun Diviney :)

Oh and Bradie took his shirt off (HOT!) and played the best drum solo I've ever heard to the Super Mario Theme song but like hardcore.

Andy looked as beautiful as ever *swoon*

Shaun was amazing too :)

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Now to do it all again April 10 next year :)

So yeah I'm a Stack Fan what you going to do about it?

lol

Photos still to come :)

xx raid

Which is tempting you more, my blood or my body? - Bella Swan

Erica is a talented girl....

Laura

Laura again

These are pictures Erica took of yours truely and Laura at this years Murray Goulburn Fashion awards. She came second in the 'Roving Photography' section against year 12s! Well done Erica.

*****

Oh I was meant to donate blood on Wednesday but I was working :/ Also as I'm vego I doubt I'd have enough iron in my blood. So it's iron tablets for me, and a 3 month wait till Katie, Lily and Bill go again to donate vampire food. Maybe this time Katie wont faint.

I heart you all :)

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When he touched me, it stung my hand as if an electric current had passed through us. - Bella Swan

Boys.

I have to say I don't really understand them. But sadly I want to.

I text a boy. He's my friend. From my school. But I still don't understand how he'll make me tell him something, even when I don't want too. Yet if I ask him a question he'll rarely answer. And instead changes the conversation. Also he'll tell me to "settle", No I am not a 4 year old wanting a lollie pop thank-you. I just want an answer to my question.

I am also wondering how on earth do you tell if people are flirting over text?! Myself being a hopeless flirter and completly hopeless he a boy likes me even if he's standing right in front of me. -.- Stupid technology.

Somethings I'll never understand. Like how Sam's hair is always so freaking perfect and how utterly assuming it is just to sit and watch Beth, which I am about to do.

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Like you saw just now, hanging out around werewolves has its risks. - Embry Call

Hello spring time.
Hello new bows.
Hello Blogger.
Hello rose :)
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Vampires don’t count as people. - Jacob Black.

Yeah I fail at this blog I realise but, well I don't know really why...

I love Short Stack.
I love Scrubs.
I love my 44's.
I love Twitter.
I love the fact that I'm making a new blog that I shall most totally shall keep it up :)

xx raid

So where were we, before I behaved so rudely? - Edward Cullen

Rude people.


I mean really whats there deals? For example....

I was standing waiting for the bus behind a few people, you know all polite and dandy thinking "Haha I'm taller than all the people in front of me, I mean like allot taller!" And there was like 7 of them, little people that is. When the bus door opens I wait for a few to get on till it's my turn when BAM I get shoved from the side from this little annoying yr 7 twerp and he laughs and continues to shove in front of me! ARGH RUDE WORDS! GAH I mean jeez can you say rude much? And he must have notice he slammed into the side of a 176cm yr 10 girl but does he say sorry or look apologetic? NO! He shoves in front a F***ING ME! AND THEN! This stupid yr 8 or 9 girl then shoves in front of me like SHOVES there was CONTACT! Ew that sounds wrong.. but THEN I continue to get shoved and treated like a doormat until the losers get on the bus and I give them dirty looks but I mean what could I do? I supposed to stop being bitchy for this course because it's a bad habit but I DO NOT want to be treated that way again! Grrrrrr........................ ARHGED!

But on the way home to calm me down I listened to the entire Twilight Soundtrack and saw 5 VOLVO'S! FIVE!!!!! Well 2 were buses but I mean 3 cars in the small place I live? It was really something :)

Well that's all for now folks!

Oh wait I don't believe Edward Cullen could EVER be rude! Like EVER! And if he was I could most defiantly forgive him because he ACTUALLY apologises! Lol otay that all :)

xx raid