I hate it how it all manages to change so quickly.

Can't we just how it was before.

I just want to try something - Edward Cullen

Last night I learnt you can make a perfectly good heater out of a park BBQ, you can fit people in one hoodie, and that it's Stevens with a V not PH.

I had fun.

I laughed.

I want to do it all again

xx raid

Skype is always entertaining.

Take this message I got this evening:

"European and American women are too arrogant for you? Are you looking for a sweet lady that will be caring and understanding? Then you came to the right place- here you can find a Russian lady that will love you with all her heart. Can't find a queen to rule your heart? How about beautiful Russian ladies that have royal blood and royal look? Here you can find hundreds of portfolios of these fine women of any age for every taste. Please excuse us if you are not interested."

I do find Europeans and Americans to arrogant!*

I do want a Queen to rule my heart!

I do want a understanding and caring partner!

Hahaha not.

Just thought I'd share...

xx raid

*Just note I am joking, I love Europeans and Americans :) I'm going to America at the end of this year, I better love them! :)

Yeah, it’s an off day when I don’t get somebody telling me how edible I smell. - Bella Swan

Well today rather sucked. I'm sitting up for the first time today feeling like crap. I downloaded the Facebook app and the Tumblr app to my iPod. Which didn't really help make me feel better cause nobody talked to me. Well not surprised since almost everyone was at school :(

I was able to do some Theatre h/w though which was good. But still have some Legal revision I could be doing but when ever I open the book a feel sick from the smell of it. I can smell almost everything today, even mums perfume made me feel ill. But I've always hated the smell of school books and magazines. I get all lightheaded from the chemically smell, not because I don't like doing the work.

So I have my legal book sitting outside opened to the page I need in hopes that the smell work be so overpowering when I go to do my work.

Here's hoping...

xx raid

Do you want me to drive you to the hospital, or would you like me to take care of it here? - Carlisle Cullen

Oh joy.

Don't you love it when you have a really great night and the next day you feel like someones hit you over the head with a large hurting stick.

:(

Not happy.

But the party was uber fun. I love my friends and there coming together to celebrate my birth.

I don't blog much but yeah. I wanted to vent but not on Facebook. Sometimes I feel like sending something out into cyberspace without a reply. Like screaming in a cave with no echo. But sometimes all I want is a reply, so I don't feel like a complete and utter idiot. But well I quite possibly am a idiot.

xx raid

Money meant next to nothing to Edward or the rest of the Cullens. - Bella

If I manage to scrape together 1000 dollar before March-ish I will be spending my 17th in the lovely city on London, England.

I will be with my lovely older sister Siobhan who is over there as an Au-pair. Well she works in Ireland but we would be staying in a beautiful apartment which is owned by her employers parents.

And if I manage to get this money, I could quite possibly be snuck into one of the new it clubs dancing up a storm. Maybe even VIP. This is if I manage to work enough over the rest of the holidays to afford it. But I would feel extremely over the moon happy if I could because:

1* I would have worked for it.

2* I would be also making my sister really happy cause we won't see her until hopefully at Christmas.

So fingers crossed and I'll wish on my lucky star.

xx raid

A new year.

A new reason to hope.

xx raid

Why must I always be scared of possibility?
Why must I crave for something I'll no doubt reject when offered?

Why must I regret everything only to wish I didn't.

Why must I insist I'm happy and fine with everything when I so far from it.

Why must I dream of the perfect guy only to be disappointed again and again?

Why for the love of God must I constantly kid myself about my feelings and hide them from those I love?

Why is it that only the conversations in my head work out happily ever after?

And why, why does nobody see that I'm dying inside.

I need to make a change.

I stared because their faces, so different, so similar, were all devastatingly, inhumanly beautiful. - Bella Swan

Short Stack.

It was a fairly good December 18th if I say so myself.

Woke up 8:30am

Go to Dads, wish him a happy birthday

Leave Dad's 12:00pm drive to Melbourne

Arrive, get all prettied up, do Siobhans make-up

Walk to train-station, get on train - off train at Southern Cross.

Get chips, watch countless (well 10) Short Stack fans walk by.

Arrive at Festival Hall at 5:15, HUGE LINES, some fans had been there since 10am!

Line up, leave line, line up in correct line.

Meet up with Georgia & her friend, dis Stack Fans, realise we are Stack fans, love Stack fans that are us, just not everyone else :P

Are finally let in at 6:30pm, line up to buy merch.

See that JIMMY MACHAN, SHAUNJUMPNOW, and SONNY ARE WORKING IN THE MERCH STAND!!!!! Arhhhhhhhhhhhh! SO FREAKING EPIC! (FYI they are really good friends of Short Stack! So that was rather awesome :) )

Realise they are much shorter than I thought they would be :p

Buy 3 shirts, and a Stack Pack which includes a massive poster and Sweet December single from Jump-now :D

Join hoards of people in mosh pit/standing area. Wearing my new I heart ANDY shirt(its like the I heart NY shirts but with A and D added in :D)

Supporting acts DIE FOR YOU and SUNDANCE KIDS, both of which where amazing and put on a great show.

Finally at like 10 Short Stack hit the stage to hundreds of screaming teenaged girls, myself included.

They put on a great show, heaps of screams, swaying of arms, hearting the stage (with your hands, you make a heart :) ) lots of jumping and burning the mother f*cking place down as told to do so by Shaun Diviney :)

Oh and Bradie took his shirt off (HOT!) and played the best drum solo I've ever heard to the Super Mario Theme song but like hardcore.

Andy looked as beautiful as ever *swoon*

Shaun was amazing too :)

***

Now to do it all again April 10 next year :)

So yeah I'm a Stack Fan what you going to do about it?

lol

Photos still to come :)

xx raid

Which is tempting you more, my blood or my body? - Bella Swan

Erica is a talented girl....

Laura

Laura again

These are pictures Erica took of yours truely and Laura at this years Murray Goulburn Fashion awards. She came second in the 'Roving Photography' section against year 12s! Well done Erica.

*****

Oh I was meant to donate blood on Wednesday but I was working :/ Also as I'm vego I doubt I'd have enough iron in my blood. So it's iron tablets for me, and a 3 month wait till Katie, Lily and Bill go again to donate vampire food. Maybe this time Katie wont faint.

I heart you all :)

xx raid

When he touched me, it stung my hand as if an electric current had passed through us. - Bella Swan

Boys.

I have to say I don't really understand them. But sadly I want to.

I text a boy. He's my friend. From my school. But I still don't understand how he'll make me tell him something, even when I don't want too. Yet if I ask him a question he'll rarely answer. And instead changes the conversation. Also he'll tell me to "settle", No I am not a 4 year old wanting a lollie pop thank-you. I just want an answer to my question.

I am also wondering how on earth do you tell if people are flirting over text?! Myself being a hopeless flirter and completly hopeless he a boy likes me even if he's standing right in front of me. -.- Stupid technology.

Somethings I'll never understand. Like how Sam's hair is always so freaking perfect and how utterly assuming it is just to sit and watch Beth, which I am about to do.

xx raid

Like you saw just now, hanging out around werewolves has its risks. - Embry Call

Hello spring time.
Hello new bows.
Hello Blogger.
Hello rose :)
xx raid

Vampires don’t count as people. - Jacob Black.

Yeah I fail at this blog I realise but, well I don't know really why...

I love Short Stack.
I love Scrubs.
I love my 44's.
I love Twitter.
I love the fact that I'm making a new blog that I shall most totally shall keep it up :)

xx raid

So where were we, before I behaved so rudely? - Edward Cullen

Rude people.


I mean really whats there deals? For example....

I was standing waiting for the bus behind a few people, you know all polite and dandy thinking "Haha I'm taller than all the people in front of me, I mean like allot taller!" And there was like 7 of them, little people that is. When the bus door opens I wait for a few to get on till it's my turn when BAM I get shoved from the side from this little annoying yr 7 twerp and he laughs and continues to shove in front of me! ARGH RUDE WORDS! GAH I mean jeez can you say rude much? And he must have notice he slammed into the side of a 176cm yr 10 girl but does he say sorry or look apologetic? NO! He shoves in front a F***ING ME! AND THEN! This stupid yr 8 or 9 girl then shoves in front of me like SHOVES there was CONTACT! Ew that sounds wrong.. but THEN I continue to get shoved and treated like a doormat until the losers get on the bus and I give them dirty looks but I mean what could I do? I supposed to stop being bitchy for this course because it's a bad habit but I DO NOT want to be treated that way again! Grrrrrr........................ ARHGED!

But on the way home to calm me down I listened to the entire Twilight Soundtrack and saw 5 VOLVO'S! FIVE!!!!! Well 2 were buses but I mean 3 cars in the small place I live? It was really something :)

Well that's all for now folks!

Oh wait I don't believe Edward Cullen could EVER be rude! Like EVER! And if he was I could most defiantly forgive him because he ACTUALLY apologises! Lol otay that all :)

xx raid

You’re as white as a ghost — no, you’re as white as me! - Edward Cullen

I love winter.

I truly do, some people may be all like:

"OMG I can't wear short shorts that show half my arse and singlets with my bra straps showing!! OMG GUYS!"

But, I am not one of those people. I truly appreciated the lack of sun and heat. Less sun = idiots thinking they need to tan which = laughing at idiots and there orange fake tan skin. Which I believe should be a sport, just like laughing at stupid yr 7's leaving the food tech room with aprons still on :) the look on there faces are priceless! But back to the point, I don't get why people believe they just NEED to be tanned even if that means cruddy fake tans! I mean don't get me wrong I also hate it when people go out in the sun and don't wear sunscreen so they can tan in summer while there are massive holes in the atmosphere from all the factory's making the fake tan! (Well I'm sure the fake tan factory's are contributing, but it is wrong to blame them solely for this mess we've got ourselves into here)

But really whats so wrong with being proud and confident with the colour of your skin??? Especially after the Twilight! I mean come on! Didn't everyone want to look/be a vampire after watching the movie and reading the books!? :F

I for one am proud of my skin, freckles and all! I'm pale! In the great and wise words of Pink: SO WHAT!? I'M IRISH!
Look in the magazines and you'll find models and more models with very VERY pale skin it looks beautiful!

So be proud of your skin :)

xx raid

What is a Volturi? - Bella Swan

I want:

A 129 MAC blush brush and World peace, Please?

I need:

To get a boyfriend!

I just:

Got into a Modeling course.

I hear:

A clock ticking, and the start stop if this video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27R7RQ7fqaw

I feel:

Sick, Annoyed and sad. Also happy, carefree and joyful.

I see:

My nails, in desperate need of attention I fear they'll never get.

I read:
'Wide Awake' Currently up to chapter 37: Mysterious Mousse Melodies
http://angstgoddess003.livejournal.com/

I love:

My MAC 'Too Dolly' Palette, and Youtube.

I regret:

Feeling sick, not going to school today and regretting things.

xx raid

I decided as long as I was going to hell, I might as well do it thoroughly. - Edward Cullen

So I'm not going on exchange to the wonderful England but alas I am not depressed suicidal and on the brink of meltdown (From this news at least... :S) because awhile ago my wonderful Mumsy gave me a choice either:
1* Go on exchange to England la-di-dah. Or....
2* Do Modeling School thingy in Melb and then after school go on working holiday of choice, mine being summer camps in the beautiful US of A

At that point I was extremely gung-ho 'bout going on exchange but when it comes down to it:
1* It's rather pricey around about $15,000 *GULP*
2* I really just wanna DO something this year, mostly not sitting alone being anti social on the holidays as per usual which is all fine and dandy but I feel as though there is so much more to: See, Do, Eat, Drink, Feel (Oh that sounds dirty), Go, Experience and so forth which I'm not really getting in the comfort of my air-conditioned home...

So at that point I had chosen option 1 and set about making it a reality which turned out to be really hard when all the places your look at going through you can only go for 10 months and it just didn't fit what I wanted really so I gave up got all upset and then gave up more quietly. But now I have re-decided and have chosen option number 2 so YAY! Also ARGH! EP! MOWTHGE! And last but not least GAH! But according to my Mum and also Lily's awesome Mummy I have, quote, "An interesting face"!!!!! I mean WTF is with that!? Lol I think it's a around-about way of saying your not that pretty but meh :p Also I SERISOUSLY want to act! Like Drama acting! Movies, TV, Plays, EVEN TV COMERCIALS! YAY I just know I almost need to do it!? Sooo yes..

So yeah if you read this: WOW! Dude you seriously just spent 5 minutes OF YOUR LIFE reading this??? WOW well thanks and your pretty!! ^_^ <<< New favourite face :)


xx raid

My mother is part albino. - Bella Swan

"Ouch" is the sound coming from my wallet after my MAC shopping trip...

I got From the MAC Store...

1. Studio Fix Powder Plus Foundation in NW 15
2. Select Moisturecover Concealer in NW20
3. 219 Pencil Brush
4. 239 Flat Shader Brush
5. "Frost" Pigment
6. "Wedge" Eyeshadow
7. "Blanc Type" Eyeshadow
8. "Nymphette" Lipglass

And from the online MAC store...

1. 217 Blending Brush
2. "Well Dressed" Powder Blush
3. "Girlie" Eyeshadow

It looks so pretty all together :) Yes it is VAMPTASTIC!

Otay just thought I'd blog a bit so yes, Work tomorrow, I'm actually excited!

Yes I am weird I know :p

xx raid

Are you still faint from the run? Or was it my kissing expertise? - Edward Cullen

Kiss me out of the bearded barley

Nightly beside the green green grass

Swing swing

Swing the spinning step

You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlight floor

Lift up your open hand

And strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moons are sparkling

So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house

Swing me upon its hanging tire

Bring bring bring your flowered hat

We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlight floor

Lift up your open hand

And strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moons are sparkling

So kiss me

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlight floor

Lift up your open hand

And strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moons are sparkling

So kiss me

So kiss me

So kiss me

So kiss me

Found Here

xx raid

A night for celebrations - Edward Cullen

YAY 100th BLOG POST!

I would just like to thank Laura for helping me make this blog, Discovery for giving me the time to make this blog, Erica for always giving me blog inspiration, Lindsey for commenting I believe every single blog post I made whilst she was over in Canadian and almost everyone since!! LOVE YOU! Paige for aways keeping it real with her blog, she really is the shiz!

And well ME! No but really thanks for everyone for randomly commenting and telling me what you think. I know it is a rather stupid blog, and I hope to give it more direction one day but she (Yes SHE my blog is a girl! Her name LOATTA - Life Of A Tic-Tac Addict hehe I likes it) likes to be rather random :D

Now to insert some awesome pictures so to finish this rather useless post :)

^^Well I think it speeks for itself^^

^^ I WANT I NEED^^

^^For Lindsey^^


^^Just to spice it up^^

xx raid